I ate and ate and ate and ate TOOOOOO Much!

Ok, so yesterday I was STARVING all day long! I was hungry every 30 minutes and I couldn't figure out why! So at dinner, what did I do? I over ate of course! Spaghetti and meatballs, with WAAAYYYYYY too many meatballs! I at all the rest of my daily, wekly and activity points all in one sitting :( YUCK! I sure didn't feel hungry anymore though! That is for sure!
Then I got on the boards and figured out that I had eaten little to no protein yesterday! Yeah, that would cause me to be hungry!
I did exercise twice yesterday! WOOHOO! So that made me happy!
I guess I just need to watch it these next couple of days and exercise again tonight and then Hopefully, I will have a loss on Monday for weight in.
Pray for me!

I can do it if I set my mind to it! The question is, Will I?

Ok, so I want to be a runner. My whole life I have hated to run. HATED! That fire in my lungs? I hate it. I have never been one for speed. I can walk forever, but speed isn't my thing. I was never athletic or coordinated as a child. And P.E. was my less than least favorite hour of school.
Having said all that, I have always envied those who get out there and run. They look great, they have great energy and personality and seem to have thier lives in control.
So I have decided to do the Couch to 5k challenge in 9 weeks. Right now we live in a very nice gated community with security, so if I am ever going to start, this would be the place. It is beautiful here and I love going for walks.
However, everytime I think about getting out there and doing it, I find an excuse not to and say, oh I'll start next week, and then I get on the eliptical instead.
About a week ago when I decided to start, I couldn't because I needed shoes. Then I realized I can't afford the prices they are wanting for new running shoes, so I will use the ones I have, and start. I am a little worried since the shoes aren't the greatest and I am worried that I will end up with an injury, but I will have to see.
I feel great for having started to workout again on a regular basis. But I really need to just commit to doing it and get out there and try. You never know what you can do if you don't try right?

I won't give in! I have the willpower to succeed!

So yesterday was a bad day! A really bad day! One of those days that is so bad that all of a sudden everything else that you are going through suddenly seems to pile on top of the bad day stuff and crush you. It feels like everything is ten times worse than it actually all is and that you are going to die from the weight of it all.
That was my day yesterday. And days like that are usually followed by lots of treats and eating and more eating and more eating, did I mention eating?
Yes! I am sure you ahev guessed it by now, I am an emotional eater! Especially a stress eater. I feel like it is the only thing that i can control so, I eat.
And yesterday, while feeling like a totaly failure in life and as a mom and like I wanted to crawl into my bed and die, I thought, well, you might as well crawl into that bed with a box of cookies.
And for the first time EVER, I did something different. I came on this site. I sat down and went onto one fo the boards I am now frequenting and I typed out all of my feelings. And when I was done, I felt so tired, but emotionally fulfilled as well. And I no longer had a desire to eat anything. So, I didn't! I went to bed instead and got a good nights rest. And when I woke up this morning, It was so amazing! I felt no guilt over what I had done, I didn't get down on myself of beat myself up over it. I just had a normal morning! It was so nice!
I am so glad that I have finally decided to do this and to lose the weight and to commit to it. I hope this will change my life forever, not jsut in losing the weight but also the way I live my life!

I've got Fititude!

Got on the scale today and I lost 2 lbs. That is huge for me since I haven't lost in a while. Of course I havent really tried in a while, or stuck with it, but this last week I did! And I exercised last week too! I feel great. I am so excited! I already exercised for 30 minutes today and my goal is to do it 2 more times this week. I am so stoked. Stoked! ROFL! How old is that word?
Anyway, I feel great and I am so proud of myself and I know that I have it in me to now meet my goal of starting running 3 times a week and getting off the next 25 lbs :)

Do or Do Not.. There is no Try!

That was a quote given to me today, by Yoda. And I love it! For years I have been complaining about my weight, my healthy, my eating habits and not being in control. But today is a new day! And today when I heard that quote it hit me. That there is no trying to workout, trying to eat healthy, trying to eat less, there is only doing and not doing. I either do it or i don't do it.
It is my choice and everyday I make choices to not do it, for one reason or another. But now I will begin to choose to do it.
Today is my first day! And I feel great!
Do or Do not... There is no try!