Keeping My Eye on the Prize!

Well, apparently what I am doing is beginning to work! I ate within my points and exercised on the eliptical 4 times this last week and I lost 1 lb! I know, it doesnt seem like much but for someone like me who has been stuck in a holding pattern for 3 weeks it is a miracle! I also feel like I have burst through a physical and psychological barrier this last week. I am lower in weight than I have been in over 2 years. Which gives me the mental boost that I need to keep going. It is strange how 1 little pound can give you the mental empowerment you need to be able to keep moving.

It makes me want to try harder and work harder so that I can lose more. It also gives me that, light at the end of the tunnel feeling. Where I feel like there is a light, and it is my goal weight, and now I can see it. It might be Really Really far away, but it is there! And I can see it! That is a great feeling! I haven't had that in a long time! And I also find that I am looking at myself differently too. I am seeing myself thinner and I can envision myself running and being fit and feeling good about myself. And they say that that is what you need to do. You have to picture yourself the way that you want to be and that helps you to reach your goal.

So that is what I need to do. Just keep my eye on the prize and keep focused on my goal!

Gettin Back on Track.

So after I got on the scale yesterday and saw that I hadn't lsot any weight for the second week in a row I was bummed. But I went on a few support groups I belong to and got some support, some tips and some kicks in the rear, and I am back in the game!

I am finding that my pity parties aren't lasting as long as they used to and where they used to get me down and eating eating eating, they aren't anymore. I am hoping that that means the way I see food and myself is finally changing. Also that I am really beginning to see this as a way of life and not something that is open to negotiation. So eating more and not exercising, is not an option.

So even though I haven't seen a lose in 3 weeks, that is a good thing. That this is my new way of life and I think that in and of itself is a HUGE milestone in my life. I know that I didn't put the weight on in 1 day and that it is going to take time to get it off. I am an instant gratification kind of gal though and when I start something I like to see some results pretty quickly. So I need to get used to this thing taking time.

Keep movin!

Why is getting back in the saddle so hard?

Ok! So! Yesterday I was out of town all day. I ate terribly! And by the time I got home at 7:00 p.m. from my 12 hour journey I didnt feel like doing anything! Especially exercising! So I didn't! And now today I feel totally out of it! I feel like I did 3 weeks ago when I started exercising and eating right after a holiday hiatis! What the heck?
1 day off and I feel like I am all the way back at the begining again. The difference is that when I started up again a few weeks ago, I was really pumped and wanted to do this. I was ready to change, ready to journal everything, ready to exercise daily. And now I don't want to. I feel burnt out and tired.
Sigh... Why is it that 1 day can make such a difference in the way that I am trying to change my life. And I am trying to change my life. This isnt just a simple thing I am trying to do temorarily to lose some weight. I am trying to change who I am! The way I eat, and see food and the way that I treat my body.
Well, I guess this is a good learning lesson for me. That if I let my guard down for even a day, my old ways can come creeping back in and tempt me and look so good. You know, like the dozen doughnuts i bought yesterday because they smelled so good. I should have known that I would never be able to stop at just one. Well that is something new that I know now. I cannot resist a good box of fresh made doughnuts. So next time, instead of getting a dozen and insisting that I will only eat one and the rest are for my kids. I will only get enough for everyone to have one and that is all.
Well, here is to hoping that I didn't blow this whole week in 1 days worth of induglence and sloth!

I tried, But the Scale won!

Hey ladies! Well... after all that hard work this week, I lost a total of...NADA! Nothin! Sigh... It is depressing to see that, but I don't feel too bad becuase I know I did my best and I worked out 4 times and ate my points. So, I feel really proud of myself despite the fact that i didn't lose anything.
I think part of the problem might be that I am nursing, sort of. My son only nurses a tiny bit anymore. It isn't like I am nursing a lot, but I kept my nursing points. It is time to wean him anyway, so I am going to switch to my no nursing daily point value and see if that make a difference.
Ok, well I am off to do my eliptical for 10 mintues this morning. And then again for 25 tonight. But I want to start getting used to doing it a little in the morning. My goal this week is for 10 minutes in the morning and 25 at night for 4 days.
I heard this great quote this week:
" You can't control where the scales go, you can only control your actions!!"
I thought that was great! As long as you are trying to make yourself better and you feel better. Forget the scale for the week!
Take care!